I’m not quite 30, but it feels like I’m experiencing a midlife crisis. As dramatic as it may sound, I believe I have shared before that I’m resistant to change, so my world has felt a bit upside down. Could it be the pandemic?
For as long as I can remember, some of my favorite things have included –
Singer(s): Alicia Keys and Carrie Underwood
It started in the fall of 2020. I drafted some thoughts about my favorite color, and it just felt…wrong. The guilt was overwhelming, but I bravely drafted a poem in the winter, and finally shared with you all in March my break up with red (click here to read).
Then, at some point throughout my pregnancy, I requested my husband make a candy craving run for Sour Punch Bites. He made a passing comment about why I insist my favorite candy is Reese’s when I don’t even really like chocolate, but never turn down anything sour. I was mortified. And I demanded he never say that again. I could never betray my peanut butter filled chocolate cup. Of course, however, it got me thinking, and I drafted some thoughts about that later on…
So, here I am, as you might have guessed, crippled with shame that I am considering why in the world lions are my favorite animals. For a few years now, the background on my phone has been a snarling lion with a funny pair of black-rimmed glasses. Recently though, I Googled characteristics of a lion, and I read this incredibly unappealing description: “from yawning in public to growling at impudent inferiors…they feel no need to follow social etiquette.” Lions have long bodies, huge heads, and short legs.
Was it the seemingly courageous demeanor that drew me in then? The magical, brilliant mane? Have you noted the arrogant, lazy way in which they walk though? Anyway, writing this out makes it feel official, and I think I am ready to begin my journey toward discovering a new favorite animal.
**Note: I listed my favorite singers above, but please, do not ever think I would, in a million years, abandon Alicia Keys. Am I reconsidering what type of music I dance to when cleaning? Maybe. Am I thinking of ways to split hairs and say I have a favorite singer AND a favorite band? I’m just not emotionally ready to go down that road…
Has the crazy year of 2020 (and, let’s be honest, 2021, too) shaken your core in a similar way!?