Cafés and Cardiologists: #SOLSC21

We dropped off the kiddo at daycare at the usual time so we could stop for breakfast before the appointment. 

Does heart failure run in either of your families? Did anybody on either side die from heart complications before the age of 45? Are there any genetic disorders either of you are aware of?

The medical center is not the easiest to navigate – for me, anyway – and we didn’t have a plan for where we’d eat. Google Maps wasn’t very helpful, and as anxious as I was, I knew I wanted to arrive at the doctor’s office early. We passed by two places we thought we’d like, but one didn’t open for another half hour and the other didn’t exist anymore. 

We’re going to take images of the baby’s heart, and then move you to a consult room so the doctor can speak with you.

We landed at an easy-to-miss, quaint French café in a popular area of town (near enough to the medical center) we’d never visited, seen, or heard of. Upon walking in, there were four elderly gentlemen each sitting at their own tables; a couple sitting by the entrance; two businessmen chatting over their coffees. 

Breathe in. Hold it. Take a deep breath. Hold it. Can you please move onto your right side, so I can try to get a better picture? Sorry I’m pushing on your belly so hard. 

In college, I loved discovering new coffee shops around town to study or read. Or, okay, people watch. There was one in particular that was connected to a restaurant by the same name. The seating wasn’t great, but it was simply adorable. A couple of times I engaged in lively and encouraging conversation with a group of men likely 80+. I don’t quite remember what we talked about, but I do remember feeling that I had received years and years of wisdom. They were so interested in my goals and my potential. 

Mild tricuspid regurgitation. We don’t know why; we can only continue to assess that it doesn’t get worse. Upon the baby’s birth, we will conduct another fetal echo and plan how to move forward. You’re seeing another specialist in a couple of weeks? I’d like to see you again in five to check his heart before the baby is born. 

The café where we enjoyed quiches and coffee this morning took me back to such lighter, yet curious days. I was invincible. I was soaking up wisdom from those who lived, experienced, learned. 

11 thoughts on “Cafés and Cardiologists: #SOLSC21

  1. Terje says:

    The contrasting alternating stories and mix of memory and future make this slice so powerful. The unknown is challenging. Sending many good wishes your way.

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  2. Tim Gels says:

    Britt, what a powerful piece of writing. I agree with all of the previous commenters; the way you’ve woven two stories together is so well done. All that said, I’m sorry this is a story you can write. You and your baby are in my prayers and I’m hoping this goes nowhere but in a good direction.

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  3. Lainie Levin says:

    I had to go back and reread this post – three times: once with only the italicized portion, once with the plain text, and once all together. It was amazing how the meaning and tone shifted with each reading. Your contrast between the ordinary, the casual, and the sterile, medical, anxiety-ridden. It leaves me with such a yearning for that more invincible time. (Spoiler alert: you’re already immeasurably stronger than you think you are)

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  4. Anna Maria says:

    Dear Britt, I’m sending so much hope and light your way. The way this went back and forth between a memory that was concrete to uncertainty. I’m sure your nerves are completely frazzled by now.

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  5. Darin Johnston says:

    I cannot put into words what everyone else has already written (and much better than my fumbling of words!). The contrast was stark and it put each in its own “relax” then “gasp” moments.

    Positive vibes from Iowa are on their way. 🙂

    Thank you for allowing us in today.

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  6. Fran Haley says:

    I am so drawn by how YOU were drawn to those who have lived long on this Earth, earning their wisdom in their years of experience…and how this wraps itself, prayer-like, around your child. Strength and wellness to you both ❤

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