Thanks to my colleague’s brilliance, we assigned a journal in which students choose one adjective that describes who they are right now and explain. Next, they were to choose and explain an adjective that describes who they would like to be in the future. I’ve expanded my teacher model for the purposes of this blog post. 🙂
As of this moment in my life, I would describe myself as passionate. In teaching, in relationships, in goal-setting, I am prone to set high expectations of myself and others. This can create problems, as you might imagine. However, I love this quality about myself. Being passionate pushes me to be better, to do better.
In teaching: When I first started teaching and I realized students hated reading without knowing why or giving it a try, I realized I myself had to be a reader of texts they also read. I devoured nearly 100 Young Adult texts between my first and second year of teaching because I was determined to convince 10th graders that getting lost in books is true and absolute joy.
In relationships: I am passionate about building up those I am intimately connected with. When I am not my best self, this passion can come out as jealousy, judgement, and self-promotion. However, at my best, I am eager to be your loudest cheerleader. As one enneagram account put it for us Threes, I am just as excited about your success as I am about my own! Passionate, even.
In goal setting: Similar to my commitment with reading, I finally discovered the crucial need to identify as a writer if I was going to be an effective teacher of writers. Since joining Time to Write last summer, I’ve remained passionate in cultivating writing as part of who I am. Despite the nerves of sharing and the inner critic who causes me to second guess clicking “publish” on blog posts, I am passionate about growing and connecting. (Thanks for being here!)
In the future, I would like to see myself as courageous. It’s funny because when I said this out loud in class, one of my students said, “you? Courageous? You seem like…well, you seem like you’re someone who always just goes for it.” As flattered as I am by this perception, I’m aware that my exubarance can be misconstrued with confidence and courage. However..
In teaching, I want to be the type of educator who advocates for students. Instead of engaging other adults, I just keep quiet. Even when I strongly disagree with clearly poor practices, I become paralyzed. I assuage my guilt with the knowledge that I will close my door, and I’ll do right by the superstars on my roster. And it’s an awful feeling. I want to be courageous for students, and I have to trust that I have meaningful contributions.
In relationships, I want to set and stick to my boundaries. I want to have the courage to say, “I can’t help you right now, but I’d be happy to do so after _____.” I want to have the courage to let it go. I want to have the courage to not internalize or allow others’ words to fester in my heart.
In goal setting, I want to be courageous in setting goals I’m afraid of. Despite seeking ways to grow, as a writer for example, I share goals, but not the “unrealistic” ones. What if someone scoffs? What if someone tells me I don’t have it in me? “Write a what? Girl, what do you know?” So, I keep from sharing the dream goal. But I want to be someone who voices the seemingly impossible.
How have YOU been courageous lately?